I got flowers at work today!!! very so special :) unfortunately they were from one of myclients and not someone trying to woo me but still lovely all the same...turned my crappy day a lil bit brighter

This is my beautiful neice hayley...i love in love and undeniably clucky!!!

Am still not doing so good at doing this journal thing...i haven't had net access at home for ages but now i do so i guess i have no excuse :) so update on me:
-just went to noosa for wild weekend with friends staying in a penthouse apartment with spa outside on deck...much fun and merriment.
-have been slutting it up a bit lately and going back to my old ways of being that asserive sexual woman i have missed so much!!! yay i will be making sure i get my needs met and look after myself from now on (promises promises)
-On that note me and a good friend are starting the Brissie chapter of the Fat Femme Mafia: reclaiming fat femme pride!! anyone who wants to join let me know. Haven't quite figured out what we gunna do yet but we have a cool name, hot women, hot outfits and femme passion and pride to work with so the possibilities are endless!!
-On a less exciting note: work going well but am a little bored with it at the moment. i have been there a year now and maybe am a little too comfortable and need to start challenging myself again and cook up some new projects...or find a more exciting job hehe
-On the love note...am finally moving on (see above section on sluttiness hehe) and getting over relationship ending with miss B. Am finally getting that i can't really move on and have her in my life cos she has that ability to reel me back in again just when i think i have gotten away. So only smart choices regarding her from now on
-I'm in my new house which is great and i fucking love this place...i think it is the nicest house i have ever lived in. My bedroom is massive and i have a window seat and bay window YAY have always wanted one of those.
-I am soooo angry about the government forcing its way into indigenous communities up north!! will post more about my opinions about this later but it has motivated me to working with some others to write a paper in response looking at the govt discourse around sexual violence for its own racist agenda and how this has been a trend in recent years.
Okay that enough for now...will try and write more regularly from now on promise :)

i know i haven't writen for ages but now that i am in NEW YORK (OMG!!!!) i felt that i indeed needed to rectify the situation. I have been here for three day and have another four left then its off to london for two weeks!!! am loving and totally spinning out about new york. I have turned into scary tourist type going on tours and getting excited about seeing the empire state building...maybe the all the neon lights are messing with my head lol it has actually been stormy and freezing ya tits off cold ever since we got here. Have been doing mainly touristy and arty type things. Tomorrow i actually have to work (the reason my work has paid for me to be here) but it still sucks but only for a couple of hours and then i am off to Blue Stockings: feminist/activist/queer/bookshop/event space..am very excited!! and hopefully will open up possibilities of other cool stuff to do. then after that i am going to see colour purple the musical (very daggy i know but am totally excited about it!!!)
Can't wait to meet up with all my long lost buddies in London and hit the dyke scene over there YAY YAY. I am even catching up with a school friendy i haven't seen for five years which am very excited about.
OK time up on stupid internet caf....will post again soon xxx

Well i am happy to report that after my last two weeks of roller coaster moods and resergence of depression (very very scary) i am finally starting to feel better YAY have had extremely productive week at work and have been spending quality time with the friends. Excited bout friends suprise party tomorrow night where there will be many a spunky laydee and fingers crossed maybe a lil flirting action for moi!! i think i deserve it after months of agony!! maybe am ready to get back on the horse, or grrrl hehehe

Do you know that stats show that scrable is a major gateway drug? studies show that in most cases vast amounts of cheap wine is consummed turning seemingly innocent good clean fun to dens of drug use, fights, trashiness and promiscous behaviour.
Case Study One: Doug and Kaz invite some friends over on a Friday night for a lovely game of scrable. It all starts innocently, enjoyable conversation and nibblies. Before they know it scrable has got a hold of them and they are drinking copious amounts of red wine, beer, spelling out dirty word and talking about acts of sexual intercourse. This researcher has it on good authority that this behaviour was VERY out of character for said participants. The game ended but it had made its mark, under a spell of vocabulary, high scores and witty banter the innocent night turns our case study subjects into an unrulley ramble who heads out into the night in search more alcohol, drugs, sex, dancing and god knows what else...... Something must be done about this before our children befall its prey!!!

Today was def a shoudln't have gotten out of bed day...cramps, headache, running running all day at work, fuckin crisis and after crisis and my team at work has deserted me!! :( there was four of us and now there is only me and a new worker ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh bring on the cavelry!!! today i had to do two property inspection, 3 new leases, a meeting iwth mental health, a meeting with the department of housing, meeting sweet parents of mental health client who just wouldn't stop talking, do some training with new girl, deal with some maintenance issues and file a claim for small claims tribunal and deal with amy class trator guilt over possibly kicking two teenage girls out of their home!! hense no lunch break, no coffee and ciggy breaks :( and hense a very grumpy kaz!! oh well am meeting my lovely friend Dave for a drink tonight so that should cheer me up!! YAY really need a drink!

Hmmm maybe my theme for this journal should be trash bag adventures!! well thats pretty much my life at the moment anyway but i do have plans to reform and be a healthier more together person!!
I started out my night at home, aiming to be quiet and enjoy being back at home in Brissie in my new bed (yay very excited) but somehow ended up getting myself drunk on red wine and then going to a party. It all started cos i spoke to my friend who's partner died a year ago yesterday and she was in a pretty bad state. She is far away in boondocks NSW so i couldn't give her a cuddle :( that left me feeling pretty down so when i flattie and friend left for theior party i decided to tag along. It was great, i didn't know anyone (a rare treat in brissie let me tell you!!) and meet lots of punky/goth types who were very lovely and quite a bit spunky!! in particular one grrrl :) anyway stumbled home and three. Nothing more exciting too report. I am going to see limp wrist tonight though which i am very excited about!! me and the west end dyke crew plan to Queerify the night and take it back from the Straights!! they will be out in force as unfortunatley they are playing with a few popular straight boy bands. Oh well should be fun anyways!!

Ok so i have finally been harrassed into submittion by my two live journal friends :) so here i am. And i don't know what to say cos its takin me hours to figure this all out and make my various selections so now my brain is fried and i need a lay down. will hopefully have more to say soon